My Used To Be Him

Well before i talk to you about

him

i will tell you about my weekend and why I'm

just a little behind on my posting.

I had a pool party this past Sunday!

It was supposed to be on Saturday but it got a little rained out.

so instead i went shopping for new Nike shoes,

sadly didn't find any i liked :(

Anyways, Sunday

i must say it turned out pretty awesome.

there was around 16 of us hanging out around the pool.

got a few suntans and a few laughs in this weekend

before we all had to get back up again this morning

and head off to school,

yay Mondays.



And now lets speak about

my him.

Well he used to be my him, until lately.

yes he is still technically mine.

we are still labeled as a couple,

i guess you could say that anyways

but truth is i haven't talked to him,

i mean really talked to him in so long.

i couldn't even tell you how long it has been.

I miss how we used to be, back when everything

was fresh and new.

When we talked and when he was all i could think about.

but now everything is just different.

i don't feel like a girlfriend

i feel like just a girl.

today he muttered not one little word to me.

not even a simple hi.

I'm not sure that he looked in my direction today either.

I know its my fault that its getting this way

just as much as its his fault too.

he hasn't talked to me, and i haven't talked to him

he hasn't made an effort towards me

and i haven't made many towards him either.

but i have tried more than he has.

I know that i deserve better

any girl would.

we all wish for that fairytale boy that has yet to make and appearance in my life.

but then i remember everything that i do love about him.

things he did way back when,

things that have all stopped and changed now.

i remember when he used to be my almost fairytale.

no longer is he what i would wish for.

though, he will always have some place in my heart.

he has never done a thing to hurt me.

not ever. he cared for me just as much as i cared for him.

but now, i think its all gone.

everything is gone.

I think its just that time we,

I

move on.

I don't think this is going anywhere further.
soon my facebook relationship status will change

just as his does too.

Just another one of those high school girls broken heart.

so i need to get my head out of the clouds

and stop thinking things will get any better

and i need to face the facts.

Its ending.

we are done.

we need to make it official and try to move on.

your wannabeblogger