miss me will you??

You moved on so quickly,
did you even have time to miss me at all?

I don't wan't you back,
i just want to be missed.

Erasing Time

well i am no longer dating the guy

that used to be wonderful.

we spent months of out lives together,

day in and day out.

but lets not get ahead of ourselves now,

it was but only another one of those

high school relationships,

one of those good ones that you think back on

when your older and wonder

what if?

but for now i just keep playing

riding solo by Jason Derulo

over and over again on my iPod

so that way i can remind myself that it's not always

such a bad thing to be single.

more time for your girls

 

and lots more flirting!

being a teen you must know your going to be

heart broken time and time again

as you move from one boy to the next.

but just knowing that doesn't always make it any easier.

soon enough ill find another guy,

hey may be better

or he may be worse.

(I'm only 16 so most likely not my future husband

but since you absolutely never know)

he may be the one, or he may be this weeks fling.

who really knows?

but anyways for now

I'm just going to erase time.

not completely though,

i may want to go back and remember.

but for now it hurts to much to think about our days,

so let's erase.

your wannabeblogger

Then Throw Away The Key.

can you honestly tell me you keep

every secret your told?

i bet not.

weather your a girl or a boy you have gossiped before.

its just a part of teenage life.

its a part of every one's life.

every person talks and a secret is never safe.

yes its true

sometimes there is a friend out there who would

never say a word.

they will lock their lips shut

then throw away the key

for you

I'm grateful for friends like that and glad

to say that i have one.

secrets are meant to be kept.

gossiping shouldn't be a major part of our lives

but it is.

and lets face it

gossiping is very fun, i do it too, 

everyone does.

and i know your going to tell someones secret,

who doesn't,

but  if you have just that one friend,

that you would do anything for,

then keep her secrets.

your wannabeblogger

My Used To Be Him

Well before i talk to you about

him

i will tell you about my weekend and why I'm

just a little behind on my posting.

I had a pool party this past Sunday!

It was supposed to be on Saturday but it got a little rained out.

so instead i went shopping for new Nike shoes,

sadly didn't find any i liked :(

Anyways, Sunday

i must say it turned out pretty awesome.

there was around 16 of us hanging out around the pool.

got a few suntans and a few laughs in this weekend

before we all had to get back up again this morning

and head off to school,

yay Mondays.



And now lets speak about

my him.

Well he used to be my him, until lately.

yes he is still technically mine.

we are still labeled as a couple,

i guess you could say that anyways

but truth is i haven't talked to him,

i mean really talked to him in so long.

i couldn't even tell you how long it has been.

I miss how we used to be, back when everything

was fresh and new.

When we talked and when he was all i could think about.

but now everything is just different.

i don't feel like a girlfriend

i feel like just a girl.

today he muttered not one little word to me.

not even a simple hi.

I'm not sure that he looked in my direction today either.

I know its my fault that its getting this way

just as much as its his fault too.

he hasn't talked to me, and i haven't talked to him

he hasn't made an effort towards me

and i haven't made many towards him either.

but i have tried more than he has.

I know that i deserve better

any girl would.

we all wish for that fairytale boy that has yet to make and appearance in my life.

but then i remember everything that i do love about him.

things he did way back when,

things that have all stopped and changed now.

i remember when he used to be my almost fairytale.

no longer is he what i would wish for.

though, he will always have some place in my heart.

he has never done a thing to hurt me.

not ever. he cared for me just as much as i cared for him.

but now, i think its all gone.

everything is gone.

I think its just that time we,

I

move on.

I don't think this is going anywhere further.
soon my facebook relationship status will change

just as his does too.

Just another one of those high school girls broken heart.

so i need to get my head out of the clouds

and stop thinking things will get any better

and i need to face the facts.

Its ending.

we are done.

we need to make it official and try to move on.

your wannabeblogger

One Week Down

one week down,

and way too many to go.

yup the first week of school is over.

i made it through the early mornings,

the new classes,

the new people,

and the start of homework.

Spanish and Geometry will be super hard,

English and biology will be fairly simple,

and family living will be completely easy.

weight training shall be funny,

i am a weakling.

and band will hopefully turn out to be

another great winning season,

even with the new teacher.

I don't exactly love all of my classes.

not too many of my friends are in them.

But I'm expecting this year to be good.

I'm having some friend problems,

being that none of them are in my classes.

well a few but not my closest friend.

lets call the ones in my classes. A, M and J

A and M are in mostly every one of my classes.

their friends, but not supper close, because A and M are attached at the hip,

sometimes i feel like the third wheel when I'm with them.

So classes with just A and M suck because i feel alone when I'm not.

then in the classes with A, M and J 

I'm  in the group with them and we all talk,

gossip, laugh, and have fun.

 but i only have one of those classes with all three of them.

Then to mix things up a bit here, one of my two besties, lets call her L

is in one of my classes. but she has not been completely there for me lately,

or such a good friend. so in that one class we have together,

yes she does talk with me, but shes stuck up some other girls 

(lets call her blondie) ass.

I thought me and L where becoming the best friends anyone would ask for,

but now i feel i do everything for her,

and she does nothing for me. 

Like she is my best friend, but I'm not her best friend.

And then there is, G, the best of the best.

I love her dearly, just like a sister,

i guess that's why there are lots of times when we don't get along,

and sometimes we take each other for granted.

But G is only in one of my lonely classes.

yep, just one. and the teacher is a bitch.

so talking is scares and hard to do.

So to try and sum that up.

(most classes) A+M= no me

(one class)A+M+J= me *sometimes*

L= sucky best friend

(one class)= only time with bestie.

but even with all this confusion,

all of my two faced friends,

and bad classes,

i hope to have a really good year.

So now the first week is over,
and maybe by the end of the year i will figure out
this whole crazy messed up friend thing.

And trust me, i know there are readers out there
who are beginning to have friend problems,
because their stupid classes split them up this year.

I hope not, but I'm sure there will be.

high school is all about losing old friends and making new ones.

your wannabeblogger

well thats hate

if your going to hate me,

have a reason.

don't just hate me because you can. get to know me first,

i bet you don't clearly know the real me.

if you knew me you probably wouldn't hate me.

and if your going to hate me don't try to be me.

i see you watching me, taking mental notes on how i act,

and how i dress so you can go around and

try to become more like me.

honestly you don't hate me,

you hate that you can't be me.

but the thing is, you don't need to be me!

you can just be you and get over hating me.

i don't need a hater,

i need you to be you,

and me to be me.

you can be great just how you are.

all you need is confidence,

and you wont be a hater any longer,

you will be the hated,

because secretly

they just want to be you.

:)

so next time you look at me with your

little devil eyes,

give me a real list of why you dislike me

so dang much.

don't just hate me because you want to.

i know all of you readers have haters,

we all do.

so this is for all the haters of the world.

reader,

don't be a hater.

<3

your, wannabeblogger

high heels and high fashion

Oh how i wish.

I wish so so much that my school was filled with high heels and high fashion.

I want to buy all the latest preppy trends

and strut down the hallways in spiky pumps

and flaunt fashion.

    

  

 

but at my small hick town school

all you get is

cowboy boots and wrangler jeans.

 

oh  don't get me wrong,

i love my boots too!

i can turn country into

country chic.

but i also like classy fashion,

spunky, preppy, high class,

FASHION.

I want to be able to walk through those

double doors and click my heels

down every hallway.

Let everyone see that i can wear all the latest fashions.

but don't think that i don't take fashion to school!

i do, i promise.

i wear the latest casual fashion and i dress it down just a little more

and still look better than everyone else, haha

sorry i don't mean to sound conceited.

because im not.

i just know that i run with the more socially popular crowed.

Me and a few of my girls wear the printed skirts,

lace, layers, big jewelry. you know, the IT things.

But at my school if you walk in wearing top class high designer label clothes,

oh your sure to turn heads, and your sure to get compliments.

but also your sure to get lots of why are you wearing that!? 

and lots of whats the special occasion??,

and what are you wearing??

and you probably wont get to many guys at my school either,

haha

most of them are country boys, or country football boys,

and they don't want high fashion,

they just want a hottie in short shorts and cowgirl boots.

don't worry, i can pull that off,

but i want to pull of styles in magazines too.

Well now i feel like I'm repeating myself just way too much so ill tell you how my first day of sophomore year went :)

Most of my teachers seem really great, but then again its the first day,

they haven't found out how rambunctious us teens are.

I have way too many syllabus and papers to fill out and way to much

 school supplies to go shopping for

i don't have too many of my friends in my classes but this was only my gold day,

we will see who is in my black day classes.

I'm not excited for this new school year, only because i know it will be

very hard and tiring, freshman year was an easy breeze.

but I'm ready to take anything that gets thrown at me this year.

i may get overly stressed, sleepy, moody, and pushed down,

but by the end of the year ill come out on top.

I know i will,

i have to try my best too.

so readers please tell me your going to work your hardest this year

so you can finish the year off strong, ahead of the others

right on top.

:)

 your wannabeblogger