my life is a country song



its back to summer now.

days are spent sleeping in the sun and nights are spent out partying in a barn.

being that its summer i now have a little more free time to write to you all.

i have been out of school for a week and so far each and every one of my days has been filled up. from shopping to the river, i have had not a second of free time. until now. seven o'clock on a Monday night. (memorial day!) and i have free time.

so like the title says, my life has become a country song.

you know the ones that talk about a guy backroading with his hunny bee. the ones where the guys sing about if they didn't have the woman their with, then they would be out looking for a woman like her. the songs about big trucks, dirt roads, rivers, ice cold beer. 

i got me an old 89' dodge pick up truck. no hun not anything fancy. this big old thing is meant to be driven down gravel roads, through mud, and cowboy boots up on the dash board.

i haven't had it long but iv already had so much dang fun with it.

yeah I'm one of those girls who fall in love with her truck. :)

the other day me and my babe, took it out back roading out on the prairie. drove through a few fields and even through the river. that's what i love about having 4 wheel drive. you can go anywhere.

me and my guy took it out in a big open hay field and just laid their for a while, talking bout the good times we had, and the good times were going to have.

yeah i feel like a love song. i have one of those things that you think isn't possible. i might sound a little cheesey here but my guy means everything to me. i might be slightly addicted to my boyfriend :p

its crazy how much you can love a person. i have no idea how i got here, but I'm so glad i did.

if you haven't found the one yet, i really hope you get to find them and experience this.

I'm so lucky to have him.

well summer has just begun and i plan to live it up. so i best be getting off of here and start jumping into the water.

ill write soon.

<3

The Best and The Worst

This weekend i had the best time of my life.

You want to know why?

I went to a concert, not just any old concert...

Scotty McCreery, The Band Perry, and Brad Paisley!!!!!!!

There are not enough words in the English dictionary to explain how amazing this night was.



Scotty, this beautiful boy, can there possibly be a more amazing guy out there?

I just don't think so. He sang his heart out to every song.

I got to meet the band perry!!

Really nice people, and so amazing.

ohhhhh Brad :)

Don't forget about the gorgeous Carrie Underwood! <3

I couldn't have asked for a better concert.

we had great seats and a great time. i would go again and again if i could.

So the concert was the best.

are you ready to here the worst?

Sorry to bring up the guy again but hey that's what this blog is about right?

Well we broke up again, surprise surprise eh?

I feel used.

Who knows what will happen in the future, i don't regret dating him, ever..

i still love this guy, so i may make another bad mistake and take him back or i may say I'm done with all of this. i don't own a crystal ball. just a magic 8 one.

but for now I'm going to forget him and remember my Saturday night with Scotty, the man i really love

;p

Its a Beautiful Snow Day

Its a snow day. Finally. 

Now that I'm stuck at home for the day i have time to write and fill you in on how my life has been and what i have been up to. 

First of all, this time has been the best, i thought i was i making the worst decision of my life going back to the same boy that this blog has always been about. He's broke my heart multiple times and put it back together again and again. I love him so much. I can see it in his eyes when he looks at me he truly deeply loves me. and i love him back. For being so young i know i shouldn't revolve my world around this guy, but its so hard not to. When I'm sick, he brings me chocolate. When I'm happy, its because of him. Every time i listen to what my mind is thinking, he is definitely on it. He makes an appearance in every one of my dreams. Its scares me to hell that he is enlisting in the marines. I don't want to lose him. I know i am going to be crushed if we ever split up again. but for now everything is perfect with me and my boy. I am extremely happy with my love life.

Second, i finally moved downstairs! My bedroom is beautiful and i love it. Its everything i am. It took three whole weeks to completely renovate the space and make it my own. Finally i have the space in my closet for every piece of my wardrobe, which i must say is excessively large. and yes i am using my walk in closet AND the spare bedroom closet as well. What can i say, I'm a fashionista. :) I have my room all decorated up with my black and white Paris theme and just the other day i updated all of my picture frames with new pictures of my friends and me. I love my friends so dearly.

Third, there was homecoming. I ran for sophomore attendant, and i must say i looked gorgeous in my wonderful blue dress. Me and my friends lit up the dance floor that night. Usually i always come home saying that the dances never last long enough, but this time i came home saying it was too long. Maybe because all i wanted to do was get out of there and spend time with my guy, and that's just what i did. That night me and my boy went riding down that back roads, so much fun.

Fourth, I went to my first crazy wild party. I admit i did get a little drunk that night, but oh did i have the greatest time of my life. Me and my closest friends partied up the night. And yeah we all got away with it. We are young wild and can't let our parent know what we are doing. :p i thought we were going to get caught but we never did. we all had so much fun and the mothers don't know a thing. they think we had a sleep over,  it was much better than a sleep over.

I'm loving my life, and i never regret a thing i do. You only get one chance to live, and I'm going to live it up to its fullest. so its a snow day, I'm off to go play in the cold.

audios amigos! 

commitment issues

I said i was going to write a book. There are still days that i say I'm going to write three books.
I must be crazy, because 2 years later and I'm still only on chapter 3.

I said i was going to learn one of Yiruma's amazing songs on piano.
and iv only made it slightly past the second verse.

I said i was going to keep a blog. i hardly ever write.



I said that i was done with him forever, now were back together again.

i guess you could say i have major commitment issues.